Author: Spoonie Nurse

surviving a shift with chronic pain

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I deal with chronic pain and fatigue every day of my life. I also work 12-hour shifts as an RN on a busy progressive care unit at least 3 days a week. Over time I have discovered key elements to surviving those long shifts–today I’m sharing them with you! Don’t work night shift! If at all possible, avoid working the night shift. When I started my current job, I was required to start working the […]

when you have no direction

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You know those times when you feel lost? Stagnant? Just moving through life with no end goal in sight? I know you do. Because I feel that way too. You may have the best job. The perfect partner. The most loving family. But you may still feel lost and alone in the middle of a world that seems to keep  spinning without you. It’s ok. It’s alright to not be “going somewhere” in your life. It’s […]

the sensitive badass nurse

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Since I was a little girl, I have dreamed of being that nurse. You know, the badass trauma nurse who walks with purpose, leading codes and managing complex, dying patients without losing her cool. The typical ER nurse as portrayed on TV. I know all nurses aren’t like that. Most aren’t, to tell the truth–not even the ones who’ve seen it all. But there are a few nurses who have this demeanor, and they all make […]

You’re Tough.

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Hubs and I  are finally settled in Utah. We threw all of our possessions in a u-haul trailer, pointed (south) east, and didn’t look back. We ended up staying in an Air-bnb for about a week while we scrambled to find a place to live. And believe it or not, we did. We’re all moved in to our new, TWO BEDROOM apartment that is mold-free and much bigger than the 400-square foot building we spent […]

Alternative Therapies for Fibro

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After three months of waiting for my rheumatologist appointment, the day finally came. It was a fairly uneventful appointment. The doctor poked and prodded me and asked me questions about my pain and fatigue. He ended the appointment by saying, “I agree with your other doctors–I think you have fibromyalgia.” Really? Shocking. He also was adamant about letting me know that I didn’t need to come back to see him. He didn’t want any part […]

Tom, Dick, and Harry

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Tom, Dick, and Harry. That is the name of the mountain I climbed yesterday. It has got to be the dumbest name for a mountain that I have ever heard. It sounds even dumber when I try to brag about my accomplishments. Like, I’m sorry, you climbed what? But that’s not the point. I climbed a freaking MOUNTAIN yesterday. It was 6 miles round-trip and 1,700 ft of elevation gain. And it hurt like crazy. […]

4 am

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It’s 4 am again. I slept for about 2 hours last night, somewhere between ten and midnight. But I woke up in a panic, heart pounding, body aching. It felt like the sweat was pouring off of me. I laid there for another 2 hours, praying to just fall asleep so that I wouldn’t feel the crushing anxiety or the burning pain. It didn’t go away. So here I am. It’s 4 am and I’m […]

What’s Helped

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There have only been a few things that have helped me cope with the pain recently. But as time goes on, I’m learning more about what works and what doesn’t. Here are some things that I have found helpful so far. 1. Heat Mainly in the form of a hot shower or heating pad. At home, you can almost always find me curled up with my heating pad. I sleep with it every night and […]

How did this even happen?

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I’ve been asking myself this question for the past several months… how did I end up here? How did this even happen? I’d been depressed and severely anxious for over a year. I had an average of at least one panic attack per week. It was frustrating and debilitating, but I was surviving. And then it seemed to hit out of nowhere. I’ve researched fibromyalgia (FM) for any clue as to how it could have […]

Welcome

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I’m not sure if I should welcome you here and thank you for coming, or apologize that you have now wasted at least 10 seconds of your life reading this blog. Regardless. About me: I am a 22 year old female, working my way through nursing school, newly married to a wonderful man. I’m a Christian, and most other Christians would label me extremely liberal if they ever discovered my true opinions and beliefs. I […]